I wish I wasn’t such more social.

I’m watching the perks of being a wallflower, and everytime I watch a movie with party scenes I always feel a little jealous. Jealousy might not be the right word, but it makes me wish I wasn’t such a social outcast.

For context, I never made it into middle school, I was in public elementary, but covid hit by the time I got to 6th grade, and my parents started homeschooling me.

I don’t know what happened since, but i’m a sophomore and I have no friends, and now I wish I was more social.

It doesn’t help I lived next to a cornfield and old people until the beginning of the year, school was the only way I was able to socialize as a kid, now? Take a guess.