perpetually embarrassed

i had my first episode of psychosis a year ago and am still trying to recover. the most emotionally painful aspect of the aftermath is the mortifying feeling of embarrassment about my delusion. it’s related to a common thing and every time i see a reference to it it makes me want to crawl in a hole (which is often). there are people who know about what i believed including my parents who i am living with currently. it makes me go into panic mode whenever i think about the fact that they simply know about my previous delusion. does anyone else experience something like this or have any advice on how to overcome it?