Commiserate, or tell me I'm not crazy

Hello, I know I'm in the swings of peri - mid 40s. But fuck if I don't want to burn it all down. I feel like I'm failing at my job, I hate the corporate grind, and I can't seem to get on top of things. I lack all motivation for work, for self care, for housekeeping. I am pursuing jobs that would be a drastic pay cut to just get a change.

Tell me I"m not crazy - what's going on with you?