Calling all older parents!

I’m 46yo and 11 weeks pregnant. It was a surprise as we were being careful and had a mess up. I even got the pill after but couldn’t bring myself to take it. Partner is unhappy and some family are telling me it’s a mistake. I wasn’t planning on children but have always dreamed that being a parent was my calling. Now that baby keeps passing these milestones I was sure she may not due to my age, I’m having anxiety I am making the wrong choice.

I make a good living financially and have loads of family and friends and an extremely supportive and close twin sister. My boyfriend plans to stick around but not totally confident he will. At any rate I’m up for the challenge on doing it on my own.

The problem is that I am terrified of choosing wrong and that ppl will have been right and that I didn’t stop it when I had the chance. I have a really great life right now traveling loads and doing tons of fun things. The problem is that even at that I am often unfulfilled. I go on trips and eat at amazing places and have so much fun but also feel like, ok now what? Usually empty inside or constantly people pleasing for everyone else at my own expense. So maybe in that sense parenting IS for me. I had a roaring 20s,30s and this far 40s. (Writing this out makes me feel like i AM making the right choice)

I see some regret from average age parents, but wondering about you older moms out there. Are you happy? Do you feel satisfied that you waited and now with the baby feel like it was the right thing to do?

Thank you!