pmdd makes me internally hate my partner

key word “internally.” i feel like i should preface this by saying i have not outwardly shown this frustration to him, and i’m doing my best to keep an open dialogue and communication with him since logically i know he’s not the problem.

anyways, almost everything he does annoys me. like i’m over analyzing and critiquing him, finding ways to be frustrated by him. i get pissed off when i have to do regular girlfriend shit- text him goodnight/good morning, show affection, make plans to go on dates, laugh at his jokes, be there for him. i just want to be left alone 😭 but if he actually left me alone i’d go clinically insane. deep down i really care about him and feel so guilty for thinking this way.. and i’m literally trying so hard to not ruin my relationship over my stupid fucking period