my boyfriend deserves better

we have been dating 2.5 years now, and we have had our decent share of ups and downs. now we are a long distance relationship and before yall start saying "long distance never works blah blah" please keep in mind when we started dating we had discussed everything and how this would affect us, he was in india back then and now he is abroad. i really really love him a lot when he was in india we started dating when i was 16 and he was 18, my parents had already discussed that after my 12th they will send me abroad and werent just saying things in thin air, they spoke to education consultants for colleges in australia since i have family there, i hadnt started dating him yet so i was like okay yay but when we did it took a lot of convincing but i managed to convince my parents for canada.
i had taken science yaar 2 years of my life went down the drain because he fought w me that when ill come "ielts kab degi??" "colleges kab apply kregi??" and this is all before my boards could even get over, my birthday is in march and so were my boards last year, he fought w me even on my birthday and i vividly remember i called him 26 times and he didnt answer once, he pushed me away so much because he struggled w paying his college fees and his parents took out all their savings to send him abroad :(
he knows i have a weird relationship w my parents which is why i used to do selfharm, when i told him "my parents have to sudden expenses i dont think itll work this year" he lashed out on me and i said that i can at least apply for visitor visa toh i can visit you na, he didnt want that he said that hes been waiting for me to move in w him, i told him i just turned 18 you cant be fr and since 14th of march 2024 to first week of may 2024 he ignored me, i sent him lengthy paragraphs he ignored and told me im nagging him, i asked to break up he begged me not to, i found him flirting in a groupchat once WHILE my pic was his profile picture. i tried ending it then and he said hes abt to die and all yada yada i didnt, he said in august he will be in india, he will prove it to me and if i still feel like he isnt good then i can leave. after we met i lost my virginity to him and we had a huge fight due to someone which is why we broke up for 5 days, (youre not the only 1 laughing)
we got back together under the condition that ill apply for my visitor visa, now i got caught up w college and assignments im doing a degree i dont even like and i flunked in a subject, i go for therapy and now its all been taking a toll on me i dont have time for therapy.
today again we had an argument a huge one, where he said that tu kab file kregi itna time nahi lagta, i told him im doing this without my parents time lagega hi, abhi rukh. he said ha ya na bol i said idk and he started fighting.
he deserves sm better bro if my parents hadnt backed down on sending me abroad this wouldnt have happened but also i need to figure out what i wanna do in my life, for the longest time i felt like since hes in canada and its such a shit country he will return back because maybe his work permit will expire but he is applying for PR
i dont want him to breakup w me last time when he did i ended up relapsing to selfharm and was so sick to my stomach i ended up losing 3 kgs and at that point i weighed 42 kgs