25F my mother telling me life went to hell after giving birth to me

25F my mom n sis came to visit me as they wanted to visit Kolkata tourist spots and I agreed I will show u. The moment she came all she can do is criticise me why I do this why I do that . She just randomly brings up anything that I am just nothing n can never go pg it's impossible -such a bad student and heated argument started which led to her saying - my life started to become hell after u were born . I don't knw how could she say this to me nobody wanted when mom was pregnant with me neither dad not my maternal grandma as I was conceive soon after their marriage and they were not sure if it's a son or not . Unfortunately I was born I really ask why u didn't abort me if I am such a nuisance to u . It's always like I am the worst person how can a person with sane mind just get up tomorrow n be like yeah let's visit Kolkata. When I told I can't she started blaming again that I wanted this that's why I started this heated argument and I am taking revenge on her n the sister . I myself went out with my friends yesterday so I told mom minimum they don't talk to me like this she is like yeah they treat u like a dog whenever required they call u n go n when they don't they just throw u out . I really can't take this it's too much these days