After quitting (pausing) an activity I love, I now see that it will be very difficult if and when they “quit” YouTube.

I am lucky enough to have somebody in my life who took over for me when I couldn’t make any more decisions. We had a long emotional talk, and brought up that leaving this activity, which has slowly become my whole life, is a serious identity crisis. The NN have been posting videos on YouTube since long before I even started this activity, which it feels like I’ve been doing my whole life, I can only imagine what non-optional performative living can do to a person, especially when they’re at an age when they need to figure themself out. I’m the same age as them and it makes me feel so lucky that I have a comparatively easy escape route.

No hate of course, I’m not even sure they want to leave (right now) but I thought sharing my experience somebody could branch off of it and make some other points.

TLDR: NN must feel so trapped because YouTube is now their identity, if and when they leave they will have a huge identity crisis.