Porn really messed me up

So I’m with my girl of 3yrs we link up boom we in the car chillin we get intimate she gives me oral i give her oral now it’s time to stick it in my penis is semi hard like it would go in for nothing mind you she’s a virgin so I’m struggling trynna put it in and she just on top doing nothing I’m distracting her by kissin repeatedly so I just ended up pleasin her by oral and fingering her I was embarrassed but she didn’t say nothing about it I wanna try again but I think the same thing gonna happen but since then I haven’t ejected since and tht was Wednesday mind y’all before are interaction I was jerkin off least 3x everyday a nite porn really took control wat should I do I watch pornstar Everynite but I’m 3 days clean now I wanna be porn free fa good so I won’t disappoint next time