28 days of nofap ended

Now i dont feel any guilt. I dont know why?. Buy one thing i know my brain is not behaving like normal. I feel only urge to watch porn. Because its the only thing which gave me happiness. I think i have become severe addict. 2 yrs ago i completed months without any flatline. Now i feel numb from the second week of nofap. I dont feel any motivation to go gym. I comprimised my life that iam severe addict and i have no hope. I will never smile while iam in old times. I think my parents not deserved a child like me. They are counting on me. My mom died 5 yrs ago. I will never become the person i once was. While writing this i feel any emotion. Pathetic!!!!. Pray for me guys