Never Live In Relatives' House

I've been staying at my phupu’s house for college, but it’s becoming clear they don’t want me around. They don’t tell me directly, but everything they say makes me feel like a burden. My phupu and her daughter constantly object for no reason. They don’t trust me to be alone. When they’re going somewhere else, they want me to go home during that time period and verbally said, "I don't trust you to leave my house alone."

The villagers also talk badly about me to my phupu. They judged me as a drug addict just by looking at my hair. Instead of defending me, my phupu made me cut my hair because of what they said. I feel like I don’t even have control over my own life anymore. I heard one villager saying, "Yo Bhai lai ta padkauna man xa gala maa." Like, what am I? An object? Why is my life being controlled by society?

They recently told me to fill out the college hostel form, but the deadlines have already passed, and I can only fill it out next year now. But their suggestion for me to leave for the hostel was a clear sign that they want me to leave, which I didn’t notice earlier. I thought staying here would be good, but now I feel directionless.

I’ve had enough. I’ve decided that after my first semester exams, I won’t stay here and not come unless necessary, like during exams. I’m planning to move to a hostel from the third semester, but I feel directionless for the second semester.

Afno ghar jasto kai hunna bhanthiye ho raxa. I stayed mamaghar for 3 years but they treat me well tara yaha ta Khai mai misunderstood gariraxu ki k ho. i always helped them in everything. they have school canteen and i go there daily to help them. like i used to help in everything free ko khana base jsto na hoss na sochnun bhnera but it's never enough idk. j kura ma ni taana matrai sunnu parxa ma bole bhny ni samasya hunca jsto lagxa aba face to face bolna ni dar lagxa malai kei bhnny hoki bhnera.