30(F) NY masturbate several times a day

I don’t even watch porn anymore, I just masturbate several times a day. Honestly, it’s not even about avoiding zina anymore.

It feels so good. I use my toys and my vibrator, and I often do it in front of the multiple mirrors that I’ve set up all around the room. I’m just so turned on by the sight of my own body winding and grinding that I don’t even think I’d really get that turned on by a man.

I like being active, so I’m not just laying there. I enjoy trying different things (positions, movements, angles, & locations) to please myself. The problem is that it’s so addictive now. It’s taking up so much of my time. I’m doing it several times a day. I’m in the shower throughout the day so I can be decent for prayer, but sometimes right after, I’m back to doing the same thing. Part of me feels like I should feel bad that I don’t feel guilty. But I don’t want to stop..