Sad that I "had to" get changed...

Yesterday I was having a lovely day, not doing much, chilling out in a lovely long white maxi dress and a hoodie over it... really comfy and 'at home'.

I had an event to go to in the evening and I was sad... "Now I have to get changed into something less femme..." I put on my skinny jeans, top and a different hoodie... I guess it's not "boymode" but it's "tomboymode" (anyone relate?)

But I realised I don't "have to" get changed. I was choosing to get changed so as not to present too femme in public.

I don't know why I'm posting this... maybe I'm hoping that writing it down will help me feel less bad about it.

I didn't want to 'have to' get changed, but I was also afraid of going out as I was dressed.

Maybe one day it will come. I know there's no rush (egg cracked 14 weeks ago).

Maybe I'll not feel the need to get changed when I go to my therapist this week...

I wonder if anyone can relate or share wisdom about this stage in transition.

I don't pass (although Nyckel is only 62% confident I'm male, rather than 98% confident as it was in May)... I don't think I look right in fully femme clothing though I feel right and I don't actually mind seeing myself in the mirror.

Yeah... maybe I'm looking for wisdom from anyone who remembers this stage...? Or just support!

😘