I hate this dead libido so so much

I am so upset. I am finally having a body that makes me feel comfortable, and I finally don't feel disgusting. I never had sex because I hated my body.

And now I'm basically dead inside. Nothing stirrs any sexual feelings. I am 13 months into hrt and I had "girl horny" about 3 times. In a fucking year.

It's like a part of me is dead and useless. I hate it hate it hate it. I feel so defeated.

Edit: also please, I know some people would like it this way but don't come to my post and comment how my agony would make them happy.

Like going to an infertile-persons post that wants children and saying how nice it would be cause you wouldnt need to use protection anymore. Please. Ffs.

I want to be horny. If you don't want to be horny, good for you.

Edit 2: Also why do my posts about my sexual dissatisfaction always get so much attention😅