We are socially awkward.

Last night, my husband and I were on our back porch smoking, when our new neighbors came over and asked if they could sit with us. We REALLY weren’t okay with it because it had been a long day for both of us. Parenting challenges and he got off at 8pm last night. But we stupidly said yes. I thought, “This won’t be terrible, this isn’t overwhelming at all!” We are not the type of couple to hang out for hours on end. We value our peace and have let too many people in our lives that turned out to be horrible decisions. Anyway, it went horribly. When they got sat down, the wife asked her husband to go get her best friend (who I guess was just over their house waiting for them to get back??) this best friend has a son who has been not so nice to my son, but there wasn’t any bad vibes at first. Picture this:

My husband and the other husband are talking (not much and very awkwardly) and then it’s me, the other wife and her best friend. They kept only talking to each other, leaving me out of conversations, not including me. And at one point I looked over at the best friend and she looked like she didn’t even wanna be there. So why come??!! We were minding our business, I promise I won’t be mad if you leave!! I’m not one to stay where I’m clearly not welcome, so I cut the hang out short and told them we’re going in. I know this is normal person behavior, but I can’t help but to feel horrible from being so left out. I felt weird. I felt like shit for not relating to just walking up and asking to hang out with someone. Maybe that’s why I don’t have friends. I felt out of place.

This is really just a rant, and a plea for validation because right now I feel SO EMBARRASSED! It all just felt so forced. Are there any other socially awkward, introverted moms who can relate to this? Please tell me your story so I can feel better 😩