hell

hell

i am 15 male, my older brother sexually assaulted me on multiple occasions at a young age, the similar age gap between me and my younger brother, who is 7. more recently, he has sexually harassed me (he was in his 20’s) , one day, my mother found and read a note i had written talking about it briefly, she has not kicked out my brother nor reported him to any authorities. i understand wanting a normal life, but it is selfish and wrong to allow a sexual predator in the house, it hurts me more that she treats me as equals to him. and treats him as a human being who has done nothing wrong. not to mention my sister told me when i was 12 i was the reason everyone in my family wants to kill themselves, simply because i steal food from them, selfishly, yes, ill admit that , evil, i wouldn’t think so. its a weird childhood im going through, and i dont care for justification for my bad habits, i just want to rant. i think about moving to live with my dad. but i dont know what would happen. why the hell does my life have to be this way. and why do some others have to be worse