Talk me out of bjj

I’m pretty certain my meniscus repair from 2023 has failed. I’ve felt a few pops, had some mild swelling and had my knee lock in flexion for about 5 minutes Monday during bjj. I had an x ray and am now waiting to get an mri to confirm it’s torn and game plan from there.

I originally planned on never going back to bjj after Monday when my knee locked up but my knee has felt find the past two days and I am tempted to go back to class until I get my mri done. I know it’s probably a really dumb idea because I could cause more damage or worst case scenario end up with my leg permanently locked in deep flexion until surgical intervention. I’m just having a hard time being sedentary and staying off the mats.