Compensated dating q_q

This is gonna sound really weird but does anyone else specifically wear jirai kei to compensated dates to feel less anxious about it? Idk maybe my brain is weird but I get so much fake confidence from jirai ughhhhh ik I sound stupid but yeah ｡°(°.◜ᯅ◝.°)°｡ (just for context, that’s not the only time I wear jirai, but I never not wear it to compensated dates)