I failed and idk what to do...

Horribly... got just 90 percentile, i was confident but fk it.. idk what do to now, life is shit i don't have the courage to face my parents.. im not someone who i thought i was or who i pretended to be in truth i suck at everything and i really don't think i can come back. I know what i need to do but i don't know if i have the strength to do it. Last year i had got 70 and sure it is a boost but this means nothing. I have failed, im a loser who can't do anything i knew what to do and how to do it but i couldn't. I have 0 hopes for april attempt, im gonna give comedk too but idk i don't think much is gonna come from that. I am clueless, all i can do is try if i fail again then i don't know what to do. I just... fk my life bro, im gonna lock in