please help..

 I tried killing myself a few days back... idk what the future holds for me. 11 se shuru ki thi JEE prep, but I could not.. abhi boards ke exams khatam hone waale hai and main 75% criteria bhi fulfill nhi kar paaungi. idk what to do... my parents got to know about my suicide attempt and my mom started crying. I reasiled what I did to them... I realised what they felt when they saw my hand... us din ke baad se, they are listening to everything I tell them, agreeing to everything I'm saying. I did not sit for JEE this year since I was not prepared.

Here's what I'll score in ISC- maths (40-45). physics(50-55), chem (barely 45)... all over 60% ho jaayenge I guess... I feel like dying. I'm the only one taking drop from my school,,, idk what to do, maybe dying is a better option

Aj maine nios ke liye enroll kiya, my dad even paid the fees. but deep down I know ki agar maine drop liya to nios ke prep mein time barbaad hoga bss... please suggest me an alternative... I'm trying to post it in some other communities too,.. i need help, please..please i'm sorry