Bohot ganda feel hota hai 😭...

Me hostel me rehta hu. Jab chutti hoti hai to gaav chala jata hu. Mera ek cousin hai mujhse 1 saal chota. Hu dono bachpan se ek saath khelte jab bhi me chuttiyo me gaav jata. Bohot maze karte the. He used to wait ki kab me gaav jau kab hum saath bakchodi kare. Me bhi bohot excited rehta tha. Me zyada gaav me nahi raha isliye mere waha zyada dost nahi hai. Lekin wo shuru se wahi raha. Dhire dhire sab badal gaya. I'm 19 and he's 18 now. Ab me kafi time me gaav jata hu like 6 7 mahine. Aisa lagta hai vo zyada oversmart ho gaya hai🙂. Like it feels like a competition ke vo mujse behtar hai hamari family me. Hum 2 hi londe hai family me. Ab vo bhaichara nahi raha. Aaj me bohot time baad gaav gaya. Ab vaha vo prem nahi. Kisiko jhaant fark nahi padta. Me waha 2 din raha Orr usne mujse zyada baat tak nahi ki🙂. He was busy with his friends. Din bhar unke saath awaragardi. To ab i also don't care. Aisa lagta hai jaise vo mujhe kisi bacche ki tarah treat karta hai. Pata nahi mujhe kyo fark padta hai. It feels bad🙂. Log hame har chij me compare karte hai driving, looks etc. Orr they think me padai karta hu to mein cool nahi hu🤡( unke behaviour se lagta hai). Har chiz me mujhe Underestimate karte hai. Meri khud ki mummy bhi. "Tujse chota hai lekin jyada samajhdar hai", "Tujhse chota hai lekin jyada lamba hai 🤡" , "Tujse chota hai lekin tujse bada lagta hai" . Me kya karu.