I failed in jee

Got only 90 percentile... my blood is frozen it seems... idk how i can recover from this but i have to cause i got a 2nd attempt too ik i won't be able to anything but i will try. rn im not even able to cry, im so disappointed with myself idk how i will face my dad who i failed along with me. Even after taking a drop year... i failed, i hate my life and idk how to pull myself