I Feel Like I’ve Lost —Need to Vent

Two years ago, I was one of my school's most loved and responsible students. Every opportunity was mine, people admired me, and I felt like I was special. But now… everything’s different.

I wasn’t chosen to be the head boy or even a school council member. People I thought were far behind me got selected instead. My grades fell, and now I’m just average—some of my friends have even surpassed me. It feels like I’ve faded into the background while others shine.

To make things worse, I don’t feel good about myself. I’ve gained weight, I’m not conventionally good-looking, and I have habits I’m not proud of. I have my physics practical on February 4, and I haven’t studied at all. I’m scared of my board exams.

And then there’s the farewell on February 5. Everyone’s doing a ramp walk, and I know I’ll just be a joke for them. Others will get titles like Mr. Farewell, and the school council will be called on stage for special recognition. Meanwhile, I’ll just be there, invisible.

I know this sounds selfish, but the truth is—I miss feeling special. I miss the confidence I once had. And watching everyone else rise while I struggle makes it worse.

I don’t know what I’m expecting from this post. I just needed to vent. If anyone’s ever felt like this, how do you deal with it? How do you accept that you’re not “that person” anymore?