I'm sick of everyone being excited for us.

IVF isn't exciting. It's stressful. There's so much waiting. It's so expensive. I'm am sick to freaking death of everyone being excited for us. You know what would be exciting? Being able to have a baby the natural way.

I also sit 5ft from a woman who at work who is pregnant by her boyfriend who she literally hates. They live together and she blocks his number so he can't call her. He begged her to abort the baby. She just complains constantly about her situation. You know what would be exciting? If she stfu about her situation.

Also, my sister finally has my absolutely perfect little beautiful niece. But before, she miscarried and our other sister suggested she may adopt. First sister lost her mind. Couldn't understand how anyone could say something so hurtful. Well, this same sister, after our failed FET, said "At least you tried." You know else would be exciting? If she'd also stfu.

I could keep ranting but I won't. I miserable. I just want to be a mom. It's the only thing I've ever truly wanted.

Edit: Last night I called my mom to tell her my father overdosed and is on life support and is brain dead. As his oldest child it's up to me to make his medical choices. I haven't spoken to my father in years. I know my parents have been divorced for a long time but I couldn't get in touch with my sisters and needed SOMEONE to talk to. My mom's first question "But what about your embryo?" "Didn't work mom." "Oh well calm down it'll happen." "Okay mom I'm going to go back to calling my sisters about our dying dad. Talk to you later."

It's been a rough 24 hours.