Accutane; no medicinal alternative but still not permissible?

I’ve been dealing with moderate and persistent acne for over ten years. I don’t go outside and I don’t like communicating with people because I am so self conscious of my skin, and I don’t wear makeup to cover it. I don’t think anything could ever or has ever impeded on my mental state more, which I know is still a privilege to say in its own regard.

I’ve tried every topical steroid I can get prescribed, cut out foods from my diet, no result. No one else in my family suffers from it as I have. My brother still thinks there are foods I can cut out- I don’t even know what would be left for me to eat, lol. Either way, I can’t go another year with my face getting worse by the day. And, not to go there, but skin and bodily issues really do impact your self esteem more as a girl- as much as I try to see past it.

A dermatologist finally prescribed me accutane. It’s a powerful oral drug that clears about 80% of users permanently in just one course that lasts less than half a year. I was supposed to start this week. However, I decided suddenly to check what the pills are made of. They’re gelatine capsules. We can safely assume they are from an animal. This is also not a medication I can remove out of the capsule, as it can cause esophageal damage. Perfect.

Consulted my family, everyone is absolutely against it. It’s not really “life or death” so I’ve no reason to. Suddenly, I’m hearing “your skin isn’t even that bad” when it’s all they ever point out. But still, I’ve seen other muslims take it, even consult muslim subreddits, share their progress in videos online- I don’t get it. Not that I have any issue with them taking it, my conscience won’t let me to anyway. I don’t know what to do. I genuinely give up- I’ve always prayed for healthier skin but I’m still lacking even after all this time. I seriously cannot take it anymore.