Devastated after herpes diagnosis

I (26F) was diagnosed with genital HSV1 a month ago after having breakup sex with my ex of four years. I feel so dumb that I let this happen after I hadn’t caught it the entire time we were in the relationship. I can’t believe that I let this abusive person back in and change the course of my life.

I’m really worried about how this will affect my future relationships and whether I’ll be able to get married and have children.

I’m also freaking out that I will never feel normal down there again. The outbreak has been cleared for weeks but I’ve had back to back bv and yeast infections since. I’ve been treating them with antibiotics and then I’ll get the yeast infection, take Fluconazole, and then the bv is back after my period! I love working out and running but I’m worried the friction will cause irritation and an outbreak.

Can any ladies with herpes please let me know when you were able to feel normal down there again😭😭😭 all I want is to be able to feel healthy in my body again😢