Need someone to talk to

Basically I’ve been dealing HOCD these last 4 months and it’s been hell. I’ve hooked up with a girl for little and it was alright but not what I was hoping. I still get intrusive thoughts when I see a good looking guy and that still freaks me out and I don’t enjoy it. I don’t watch gay porn or get off to anything gay. I’m just confused because I lost my attraction to girls, even though I still talk to them if feels like I’m forcing myself and it irks me everyday. I smoke weed and watch porn very often so might try to cut both of those out to see how I feel.