I just want to give him a hug

Lost my dad 3 weeks ago. He died alone in his house after a full shift at work, at 55 years old, and wasn’t found until 3 days later.

I have the most overwhelming need to hug him. I didn’t get to see him, or say goodbye. It was sudden, and I’m really struggling. My brain forgets that he’s gone, and when it remembers, it still takes my breath away.

I just want to give him a hug and tell him I loved him. I want to comfort him. Knowing his last moments were spent alone, in a house that was falling apart and rotting, it hurts.