Some things I've realized about grief

It's been about a month since I lost my dad- some thoughts I've had recently:

• How badly I want to connect and relate to someone in a similar situation
• The disappointment in not seeing as many signs of them as expected
• Random triggers
  • When my friends talked about how thinking about their parents aging made them sad... they saw my face change and I said they'd be lucky to see them grow old :(
  • People don't realize it when they're saying things but maybe it makes it that much worse
  • An ice cream sandwich made me cry because he liked that flavor
  • I can't watch medical tv anymore
• I no longer fear death