How much more is there…

Honestly I don’t know how much more I can handle learning.. and beck is the one who lived it. I don’t understand..this whole thing is really messing with my contamination OCD. I don’t understand how someone can live that filthy of a lifestyle and be okay with it. And to make someone else literally clean your shit (washcloths) up for you.. insane to me. She is so beyond disgusting. I don’t think I can continue to even “hate” watch at this point. There will truly never be a rock bottom for her..