I can’t with this game anymore

Ok so me and my friend load in with a purple keycard and we each come in with a kitted scar. Everything goes well until I get to extract. The moment the countdown starts, my scar just vanished into thin air and I never got it again. After this I load into a raid with a lot costing about 25k (which is a lot of money for me) so as I go in to kill a dude another one pops out of nowhere and kills me with a ruger (no AP). I know that this is a skill issue but it still sucks so much to get killed by a no life 100m away with the worst gun in the game