Will I ever be normal again

I feel like I ruined my life. I’m 5 weeks post op and I am so regretful it’s sick. Will I ever be able to order take out with my fiancé again and binge watch love is blind, will I be able to go to a movie and have popcorn, ever have another birthday cake? Enjoy McDonald’s during a road trip, Have Mexican food with my friends before a night out, late night eats after a night out! Shit even toast with my damn breakfast. I regret this so much, I wish I would have tried harder. If you’re considering this surgery please please please do your research. Maybe even pick sleeve since it seems they have more food freedom. If you had gastric bypass & you live a normal life where you have the occasional fast food & eat regular during the week I would love for some positive thoughts. I don’t know what I did 😔