Failing father not even 4 days old…

Hey yall dads… long time lurker, first time father here. 30(m) TL;DR at the end.

I’m so terrified i’m failing my little girl… and specially her amazing mom. I’m prepared to face the gallows from y’all but hopefully i get some decent advice too…

Background: I was raised by a single mother 90% of my life and my father literally disowned me over facebook when i was old enough to try again with him at 21.

So first… i’m so terrified of hurting this little girl, like physically (I do NOT have thoughts about shaking or anything.) i’m just afraid the way i hold her is wrong, the way i burp her is abuse, when i clean her poopy diapers it’s wrong to be wiping crevices… any frustration i really get is just… i want her to be happy and clean and safe and warm…. the crying doesn’t annoy me i just want her to be happy…. Now mom tells me that’s all bullshit and i’m a really good dad. but until my girl says she loves me how do i know?

I feel so terrible because i fall asleep and stay asleep for 6 hours each night… i just don’t wake up to the cries i guess… moms gotten probably 1 day of sleep since we arrived at the hospital and the real numbers probably less. How dare I? i try to tell mom to take as many naps as possible while i’m awake

Also my little sweetheart has a smart sock thing that doesn’t seem to work the way it’s supposed to, it’s really really tough to get on her while she’s flailing and screaming… last night i did get very very frusterated and upset. i didn’t harm anyone but i was afraid of my own emotions for the first time in a long time.

I can’t stop crying out of overwhelming emotions all the time.

Her mom and i communicate as much as possible, i check in with her every chance i get to see if she needs anything. she says im doing great and she loves the way i am with her… but shes certainly the loving type of person to bare far more of a burden just to ease any of my own.

My little girl won’t seem to stay asleep unless she’s being held… any ideas? not that it’s a burden… just would love mom to get more sleep at night.

Im rambling… but i also just wanted to thank every single one of you who never abandoned their kids… who did the work. I see yall on here… all the time. the challenges and struggles and happiness you bring your children do not go unnoticed

TL;DR: I don’t know what im doing, i don’t believe im doing enough, im getting more sleep then mom, and baby doesn’t seem to rest without being held, also thank you to the daddies out there.