Update #2: Guess who didn’t lose his job????? :)

Guess who didn’t lose his job after talking to my boss and resolved some tension I had with another coworker after asking her for resources of different Christian fellowships on campus to explore God more? Right after that, on the way to my college’s food pantry, a guy recruiting people to encourage people to vote early in an election for the Supreme Court justices in my state saw my “I voted” sticker had an impromptu interview and I got the job on the spot! It pays $24/hr some days, $26/hr other days, and the seasonal job ends the day before I start my intensive therapy program! I was so worried about financially surviving this next 2 month period in my life, but I trusted in God fully, asked this subreddit to pray for me, and I’m going to have an extra $800 dollars now!!!!!!! And, better yet, the food pantry at my college had the best food they’ve ever had and I finally have a pantry at home full of very nutritious food for the first time in my life!!!

The more I seek god and follow his will, even with periods of struggle and doubt, I learned that if you always trust in him and follow his will, it will turn out to be okay eventually!!!! And, the best part yet? After I took my medications this morning, my bipolar finally stopped impacting me! I don’t feel high energy or impulsive nor depressed and decreased energy. I just feel mellow and I assume normal? I’ve never not had my bipolar affect me, so this is awesome but weird!

I felt like I was saved when I started believing in God and a little later on, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. I figured out a potential idea of what I was saved from. When the horrific religious trauma my mother inflicted on me destroyed me so much I became a militant atheist at 14 (despite having an extremely strong faith in God before that), I believe Satan got a grip on me. I’ll certainly explore this with a priest when I can, but I feel like Satan has been desperately trying to kill me to not do God’s will for me as God’s will for me is becoming a psychiatrist who specializes in trauma disorders and addiction medicine. I feel like Satan almost killed me at a few points, but I pushed through with God’s help without knowing he was even there! I think what I was saved from is Satan’s grip on me and he finally lost that grip on me when I finally believed that God exists and he is my creator. Like I said, I’ll absolutely explore this with a priest to make sure I don’t spiral at all with my extreme anxiety issues, but I feel like that’s what happened to me.

God is amazing!!! If you have doubt, reach out to places that recognize God, love god, work through the issue, and have faith! I honestly think that believing in God finally saved my life and why my life is finally turning around! :)

TEC, ON SUNDAY, HERE I COME!!!!!!! :D