recovery so far

im 15F and got an ed around summer last year. its been a constant cycle of binge eating, feeling bad and then not eating for days. My family and friends started pointing out that i look skinnier now and its makes me feel so anxious “oh does this person also notice that im skinnier?”. a few weeks ago i stepped on the scale and i was way under what i had to be for my height (im 5’10). Im gonna be honest it scared me alot like this is NOT good 😭. I also tried to recover in summer but it didnt last but now im way more determined. Meal prepping is really helping so i havent went a day without eating in 2 weeks. I noticed feel more comfortable eating meals alone, its like i have no pressure on me and i can just listen to myself. i still feel guilty after eating but im not acting on that guilty feeling anymore so like im pretty happy about that !!