Do you have social anxiety? Does it interfere with your commander games experience?

Fortunately I'm able to go out and play and I'm usually chatty and bubbly during games, and I enjoy it a lot, but afterwards my mind likes to overanalyze if something I've done really annoyed someone. It's all jokes and banter during games, but afterwards I go "wait, was it just jokes or did they really get upset?" Doesn't help that I'm new and not that great at the game and my decks are weak. I get confused if someone has the right to be upset with some game action I took, because it was poor threat assessment on my part, or they're just salty because I attacked them/removed their permanents.

I also really dislike feeling like someone is doing me a favor by agreeing to play with me. I'd rather they just didn't.

Anyway I then end up wondering if someone I played with is going to act cold and hostile towards me next time to send a message that they don't want me there. It's a fairly small community where I play.

If you don't have social anxiety, I'd love to hear how little you worry about other people getting upset with game actions you take. Or whether they want you there or not.

And if you do, feel free to commiserate with me.