My experience taking MDMA

Hey! I want to just share my experience on this drug and i also have a few questions if you’re willing to answer.

It all starts when I called my friend to see how she was doing. We talked a bit, and she asked if I was still smoking marijuana as much. I told her it hadn’t really changed. Then, I asked her if what you feel on MDMA is really how it is, because a friend had told me about his experience. She confirmed it was pretty much true and mentioned she was going to an open-air rave, suggesting I should come and try it with her. I agreed, as I completely trusted her to kind of "trip-sit" me.

I arrived at her house and was greeted by a gust of wind blowing the door in my face. We did our usual greeting after not seeing each other for a while. She showed me the pills she got for that day, and I asked if it was okay to roll a spliff or two to take with me. She said it was no problem, so I did.

While she was getting ready, I went outside to smoke. When I came back, she said she was going to pre-take a quarter, and I did the same. She mentioned it would take about an hour to kick in. We drove to the train station, and on the train, we looked at each other and felt sort of weird. I felt hot, my hands were sweaty. I wanted to do something.

We arrived at our destination and were immediately met with a long line to get in. I was stressing a bit as I’d never really tried smuggling stuff. I put the empty pack of cigarettes near my groin and kept my composure as the line moved forward. At this point, the security stopped me and told me to take everything out of my pockets. He patted me down, found nothing, and let me pass.

I got a drink, a locker to put my jacket in, and we went to the music. As soon as we entered the area and I felt the bass in my stomach, I felt so euphoric. I immediately smelled a strong weed odor, so I figured I might as well light up. I followed her to a good spot in the crowd, and I started feeling the music more and more.

I got another drink, and she told me she wanted another quarter, so I took one as well. The music felt amazing, and I decided to take my shirt off. The sun on my skin felt so good.

I was also thinking about a lot of stuff that didn’t really matter. I was blinking a lot and thought I was looking cross-eyed for some reason. I asked my friend, and she told me to relax and let everything go, as I tend to overthink a lot.

I had another one of those moments where I felt so bad, the guilt for saying something stupid, or talking too much when I should’ve just been enjoying the music. When we went to get another drink, she asked me if I was okay. I hesitated, stopped walking, and explained what I was feeling. She repeated her advice, and it helped. I asked for a hug, and we moved on.

From that moment, I started to like talking to strangers. Everyone was so nice, so accepting. I talked to this girl from Lille, France. I made a bunch of friends and even made out with a girl.

Her boyfriend eventually arrived to pick us up. We went home to get my stuff at her place, and he drove me home. I thanked them and tried to get some sleep but struggled. I woke up a few times throughout the night and eventually woke up at 11 am. No hangover, no headache, nothing. My day just went on as normal.

I went to work on Monday and had the worst feeling imaginable. Usually, I’m not really happy, but this was just so weird to me. My colleagues being assholes to me didn’t help. Nothing I did was fast enough for their liking. In the afternoon, I did some work alone.

Tuesday was even worse. It felt like I could cry about anything. Every bad thought was rushing through my head, and the bubblegum feeling in the back of my throat just wouldn’t go away. It was the worst thing I ever felt...

Thanks for reading if you did.

I tend to be in a pretty bad mindset alot and having those while tripping there really showed me how bad it can be.

Is there any way that i can lessen my dip a bit?

Is doing weed on this drug considered a no go and should i not do it anymore?

Is there any other things that i probably should do different next time?