A little vent I guess

I wish I didn’t feel judged every time I play killer. Every time I play, I feel like every single survivor is expecting me to be some god tier greaser. News flash: I’m not. I try my best, but ultimately I’m just not very good. I get 1Ks and 4 man outs a lot, I’m hot garbage. It feels like it doesn’t matter how much I lose though, because every single game I just feel like I’m playing against 5K+ hour god sweats who devote their entire existence to this game. God sweats who know every aspect of the game like the back of their hand, when I honestly can’t be fucked to learn map layout, tiles, totem spawn locations, and all the other stuff I’m expected to learn in this game because I don’t want my life to revolve around the game. It would be nice if just once I could have a survivor in endgame chat say “you tried your best, and you did great.” Just any type of positive comment, because most of the time I think survivors are thinking “wow what a dumbass that was the easiest game of my life.” I want to know that I’m not getting kicked in the stomach for trying.