Why can I never see entities

Ive tried DMT quite a few times already, but I never seem to be able to breakthrough. The first few times I did it, the bodily load was too much and I couldn't handle taking more hits. Everything just became cartoonish and had rlly faint closed eye visuals. I also tried doing it while on acid. It was rlly intense and it felt like I was paralysed and made me feel like I was in a different world. But when I closed my eyes I kinda only saw weird moving shapes. I just wanna see entities