Unevenly yoked

I decided to be in a long distance relationship with an unbeliever. In some ways he treated me better than some Christian guys I'd been talking to. At least in the beginning.

Last night he sent me nude/porn gifs. I've gone through sexual assault so this triggered a major trauma response as normally the things we'd send are the cute, lovie dovie gifs. We were friends first for about a month before he convinced me to be in a relationship with him. There was a big age difference. I'm the older one. I realise I need someone with more maturity who also loves God.I felt so let down by his actions.

I know he had been going through a lot of stress with exams for his masters. So I get it! Stress can make us do weird things. All this time I had been praying he would become born again. He told me would never change his faith last night. He had told me he would go to church with me, and I guess that gave me hope. I didn't know if God brought him into my life for him to find God. I'm glad I've ended it. I was going to be meeting him and had told him he couldn't stay at my house etc. I just feel he'd want premarital sex which I do not want at all.

Please pray for me guys. I'm hurting so bad. Also in a tonne of physical pain - I'm needing multiple surgeries.

Wouldn't it be nice if we could all find someone we love that is Christian. I wish it wasn't so hard. I'm sending love and hugs to you all. 🩷🙏🏻