I'm a CA. But at what cost?

Started my CA journey back in 2016. Cleared CPT in first attempt and IPCC in 4 attempts. Pursued 1st year articleship from Mumbai and then from my hometown. Started giving final in 2021 and cleared 2nd group in first attempt but took me hell lot of time and efforts to clear 1st group but finally could make up everything in May 2024 attempt. I always wanted to be a CA. We all want to be. And now that I am, I feel that I've lost myself in the journey. I used to be someone people would look upto. Full of enthusiasm, full of masti mazak person. People have literally told me that we like being around you. But this journey uncertainty, depression have sucked my soul from within. I have turned into a boaring freak. Cannot even speak properly, lost all my confidence, lost my childish nature, I fumble when I speak, cannot even get into a conversation with anyone. I fumble alot. So moment, every fucking moment I'm doubting myself. I question myself whether or not I'm good enough. I question my speech. I question myself of the comfort people have with me. I basically question my own existence. I'm sitting right here questioning - was it really worth it.

Guys please do not loose yourself to earn a degree that doesn't respect your self being. Just fuck everything and focus on being a better of yourself.