Being an autistic Catholic stinks

Only as an adult have I realized that I am autistic. And, with this realization, I have thought a lot about past friendships and just realized that all of my “friends” were actually my bullies. And, of all of these people it has been the Catholic “friends” who have been the most cruel. And, I’m only realizing that after learning about my relational blind spots. It literally just reduced me to tears since I used to blame myself so badly for any friendship issues. If anyone else here is also neurodivergent, do you relate to this?