i just have to say this

I am 32F

2022: I fell in love once, with a man I met online. We talked to each other and had video calls for 11 months. I wanted to see him, fly to his country. I asked if he sees himself having a relationship with me. He said "I am just here, existing. I do not really know." Bottomline, I was rejected. Took me more than a year to move on.

2023: I flew to NY for work and I met a guy from a dating app. We went out on 2 dates. We really hit it on and continued talking even after I went back to my home country. Eventually, I asked him if he sees himself being in a serious committed relationship (not necessarily with me), (on the 5th month of knowing him) and he said "I just want everyone to be happy." And I didn't message him that much after that.

2024: I went out with the 2023 guy again because I was back in NY (i know dumb). We went out again. I had the same feelings. I want to love him. I hope by this time he changed. I asked the same question and he said the same answer.

I feel so stupid fo doing all of this. But I just have to say this and want to know your thoughts on how I can move on. I tried dating other men and they either just want to sleep with me or just "see where it goes."