My thoughts nowadays.

LONG TEXT AHEAD (It's all casual, nothing important so feel free to scroll)

Remember when his 5.3 dialogues leaked just a few days before the new year? And how everyone was mourning? I was one of them. Made me so, so sad that I didn't wanna do anything that day. The whole day I saw people expressing their sorrow, and then came the night when some dataminer posted that skill obj thing. I saw people rejoice, and so did I.

From that day onwards, I would scroll and read every theory about how he'll be playable in the later 5.x patches citing that Jesus theory and other ones as well. It gave me happiness. Excitement. Yeah he's definitely coming in this certain patch. Not a single day went by when I didn't search for more theories. Every theory, every datamine kept me going.

Then one day someone posted a leak regarding his throne being empty, indicating that he got up (the Auntie N incident). That day I was at my graduation ceremony and the moment I saw that photo, boy was I smiling like an idiot lol. I even got caught on the camera hahah. And sometime later it was proven wrong. Fine I thought.

And then came the news of 5.6 beta and drip marketing on 31st and also the moon event. People started making theories and I read it all with such interest that I was absolutely certain in my mind that yeah, it's happening. Though few days before the beta, I started convincing myself that it might not be him and that I should be mentally prepared. My fears came true.

5.6 beta drops, and it's not him. For some reason this hit me like a bullet train even though I convinced myself that I wasn't expecting him. It didn't make me sad,, but something within me disappeared. And since that day I'm still seeing theories and stuff people write here but I'm no longer reading it. I'm no longer paying attention.

There's no mention of him anywhere, as well as no indication. All we have is datamines. I know he's going to be playable. No denying that. But it's almost like I've given up. Like, I'm not dying to know when he'll be playable. If in 5.x, fine, if in 6.x, also fine.

I play daily for some 10 mins, piling up wishes. I'm at peace right now. No excitement, but also no sorrow. This is not a rant, I just felt like sharing this. How are you all feeling? And what do you people do these days in the game? I'd love to hear :))