nobody cares as long as your body is alive

nobody fucking cares as long as you're alive. nobody cares as long as your physical body is alive. nobody fucking cares you're suffering every moment - the only important thing is to force you to live. nobody cares that it's unbearable. why. why i'm invisible as long as i'm alive? why people see me only when i'm so bad that i start to talk about suicide? i feel like people just want me to shut up.

you're somehow obligated to stay alive. you can cry your eyes out, isolate yourself, but the moment you say about suicidal thoughts - it's everybody's business.

the moment people find out about "wrong" ways of self-harm (as in: cutting is worrisome, but drinking is "acceptable") they make this fucking Face.

(from personal experience) or you will be forced to go into the hospital. not necessarily the good one. probably the one where you will learn how to fake your behavior. everything they need is to make you "comfortable" part of society again. or fucking drug you. force you to "be better" even if everything they do only makes it worse. now you need to protect yourself from them too, and survive this too.

just decided to add a reminder: "there are always more choices than brutally forcing someone to stay alive or passively letting them end their lives." you are not the problem for being suicidal, you are human being. you deserve understanding, care and acknowledging of your pain.