I’ve lost my childhood cat, my two friends abandoned me during my car accident, and my fiancée is leaving me.

I just want to curl up in a ball and give up on life. I’ve started attending AL-ANON meetings again and today helped a little bit put perspective on being a child and hiding and not being loved the way I should have been. I’ve cried once since my fiancée said it’s over and I’m just numb and in denial. I’m stuck in the past with all our memories, my phone literally is filled with hundreds if not thousands of photos of us. The present and the given situation and not being at peace. Then the future and what happens next. Day by day till I finally lose her and we part ways. I’ll be alone. I’m just going to forever be alone.