I fucking want to die now

Fucking soiled the maths paper too. I can't see how much more i can take this bullshit. Full year study kara preboards mei 79/80 le aaya par boards mei sab chod diya. In every exam mere 70+ aa gye the aur ab 50 + bhi mushkil lag raha hai.

Full 8 din pura 8 hours study kiya rd kar liya rs kar liya exemplar pyps marathons sab kuch kar diya. Mei mazak nahi kar raha hoon, sach mei mera prep itna acha tha ki mei confidently chala gaya exam dene ke liye. Anxiety se bahut mistakes kiye aur saala paper itna lengthy tha ki mei check bhi nahi kar paaya aur 2 questions chut gaye (case study and 5 mark)

Hindi aur science already messed up tha isliye mene socha ki ab mei maths mei acha launga isliye dil lagakar pada. Ab marks ke sath motivation aur will to live bhi chala ja raha hai. 11th mei pcmc le liya par ab mei kya karu 10th boards mei bhi ghatiya marks aa rhe hai. Sabke expectations 95+ ke the aur yaha mei 90+ bhi nhi aane wale. Parents ko bol diya ki paper ok tha aur room lock karke 1 hr se mei ro raha hoon. Aur uske saath relatives and friends bhi call karke pooch rahe hai. FUCK MY LIFE. Just want to end it all man can't do this shit anymore.