Skipping shillong interview, I know somewhere deep down guilt will haunt me

Life’s such a bitch that I was so excited and happy when shillong’s call came. I felt I had “got it” and was day dreaming in my head watching youtube videos.

As life would be, I had dwindling savings and responsibilities keep on propping up in family. The people who earlier supported my dreams, were now looking at pity and think how I even live in a tier 1 city without salary.

Nonetheless, once you get accustomed to a lifestyle I think it’s very difficult to move out of comfort zone. I’m sure this will happen to you once you try to become an entrepreneur etc.

Anyways I landed up a decent job which is WFO and kinda strict wrt timings and all.

The money’s good but deep down I always wanted to pursue an MBA and get back to college life and enjoy my final fests with friends. Today I’m skipping shillong interview because I know I’m not at the place to take the offer up even if I get one.

Today I have my shillong interview and I’m slogging my ass off in the office desktop. I know I’m extremely privileged to even say this, but deep down somewhere I feel this feeling will haunt me till the end that may be I should have gone for the mba when I had the chance. Despite knowing I’ll most likely return to the same desk. I know it doesn’t make sense financially and whatever, but at times you crave for that college life once again despite all it’s challenges.