Can't take it anymore...

nhi hogi merese 12vi ki padhai yar kitna hi kuch krlu kese bhi krlu nhi lgta ki ho payega... jee 1 chud gaya jee 2 bhi chudega or cousin se baat kri toh unhone kaha ki board me kitne ajayenge bola 60 65 toh bole ki 60 se upar hai toh ho jayega T3 clg me bus jee pe dhyan dede but nhi lgta ab kr paunga.. kya kisi T3 clg me rekhe comeback possible hai? mujhe bus PCM se dur jana hai programming wgera krne ko taiyaar hu usme pehele se interest hai.. please thoda sa sahnubhuti dedo ki ho skta hai taki me procrastinate krna band kru.. or abhi se batado April me jee ke baad kya kru? koi language sikhu? koi skill? kuch bhi jisse baad me thodi help ho jaye till i get into my clg.. bhot help ho jayegi bata dia toh.. dhyanwaad in advance..

What I want from comments is that what can I learn before my collage starts.. I'll be free after my jee which is on 4th of apr.. so which language to learn which skill I can start and any tip or pre requisite that will benefit me to get good cgpa.