Dreamed about leaving you

Just woke up from the dream. I dreamed that you said you stated seeing someone else. I decided to leave you and on my way to your home to get my things back.

You raised the break up but you weren’t ready for that. You weren’t totally not ready. That’s why you still wanted to celebrate valentine day with me and called us couple.

I was the one who was persistent not to break up but now I kind of just want to end it in real life instead of doing this difficult NC period and giving you the space and time you want. If we are not break up why we are doing the NC and why you wanna hangout as "friends"? I don't know what to do next week when we hangout "as friends". Life is difficult enough and why you are torturing me by giving me mixed signals?

I hope after this current NC when we see each other next week, you would feel better about us, and we can be the happy couple again. And just forget about all this drama of break up and pains.

If this best scenario can't happen I just hope I can be hard hearted and break up completely. I want to get my stuff from your home and leave your life permanently, like what I was trying to do in the dream.